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Wednesday, October 29, 2008

hahahas.. i am now blogging in school.. during math lessons.. hahahahs..

lol.. ytd, lessons, then stayed in school to makan and study for a while.. lol.. went home alone, bought manga and rented some. reached home, ate dinner with dad, then did OP ppt. hahhaahs.. lol.. watched tv. lol..
toked with dad then with mum, alone.. hahahhas.. lol.. like so long didn tok to them le even though it is a bit naggy.. hahahahs.. i am ok de la.. hehehehs..

now.. hahahs. slackinh in school an shing looking at the post while i typr.. hahahahs.. LOL.. gtg.. tml is 'A' level Chinese paper.. hahahahs.. GOOD LUCK TO ALL TOSE TAKIN THE PAPER TML!! =)

9:23 AM
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Tuesday, October 28, 2008

maybe i am that dispensable in the lives of all the people i know.. that wad i can say.. maybe i will always be better if i am not in this world.. actually whether i am in this world or not, it does not really makes a difference.. cos i am just a nothing in peoples' lives.. maybe everyone will be better off if they dun know me at all.. cos i am such a bitch..

2:09 AM
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didn go school these few days.. not feeling well.. i guess.. the entire week was a disaster..

tues: had inter-class netball.. i did a bad job.. i think the class won cos of the good players in the team and the superb supporters.. went for sakae with shenn, nic, jacky, anges amd jiaxin. met yongqiang, walter, zhepeng, bernie and elysia.. slacked around at JW library.. hahahas... went home..

wed: another normal day.. went to eat KFC with winnie, hahahahs.. then met taoyan.. came to my house and play.. watched RAISING HELEN, then sent taoyan home.

thurs: the day that i realised that i always emoed. was listening to my MP3 for the entire day.. toked to shenn a while before going to bio tutorial.. watched a mute show.. went home alone.. did the stuff that i have been doing or the past few weeks.. read books, watch anime, play com..
had a super long heart-to-heart talk with shawn.. um... not feeling well..

fri: didn go school cos of fever again, missed lots of stuff i guessed.. laoshi called me, i slacked at home..

sat: went to ahma's and had a great lunch.. went shopping with aunt and mum for winter wear.. home..

sun: slacked at home.. watched tv, FINALY PACKED MY ROOM AFTER PROMOS.. bought more manga..

mon: slacked, read manga, watched anime, went JP for a while.. did I&R.. thats all..

um.. all i can say that from the talk with shawn, i realised that how i have been this entire period of time.. do i really think and act as if the world revolved around me? the way shawn talked, or scolded or wake me up was like i have been a selfish, sucky BITCH.. i really now think so.. am i really that hard to reach?? thats why all my frens has stopped toking to me?? i think i really am.. now i realised that for these period of time, i am acting as a bitch.. now, my frens ignoring me is a way of karma, retribution.. so maybe the world will be better if i didn exist..

I AM A SELFISH, SUCKY, BITCH!!

1:39 AM
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Sunday, October 19, 2008

hahahahahahas.. tired.. that's wad i can say...

came back from leaders' develpment camp. hahahahs.. naped a while.. now blogging.. cant rlly do anything cos i left the school stuff in school.. LOL..

FRIDAY (DAY1): was happie during lessons cos i gt along well the others.. hahahahas.. went for camp with a reluctant heart when i was tying water bombs at the netball court.. hahahahs.. tying water bomb was fun... LOL.. mass danced with bernadette.. sorry girl if i didn dance well or sth.. hahahahs!! ate dinner with my tribemates whom i dun know well except jacky.. the dinner was.. hahahahahas.. we ate with our hands tied to each other, difficult but quite funny lor..hahahas.. didn really toked much cos i didn really know the others well.. i envied others like shawn, nic or shenn whose group has ppl they know.. haiz.. haunted house wasnt scary at all.. hahahahahs.. I WAS LAUGHING EH!! LOL.. get too know m tribemates better... went to bathe with luyao.. hahahahs.. slept with huiyan and luyao..

SATURDAY (DAY2): woked up by the councillors to attack the boys with water bombs.. then luyao and i went back wash up when the girls were ambushed... LOL.. did warm up, had breakfast... then MASS DANCE!! hahahahs.. i danced with jacky.. was cool and funny!! THANKS! hahahas.. then WATER GAMES: "TELEPORT" lol.. the ground was super hot.. the game elp to bond TRIBE 1 better. ahahahhaas... then we bid for our lunch.. hahahahahas.. COOL EH!! after kunch was somesort of kinetic warfare.. then the finale was cool.. hahahahas.. danced with nic.. LOL.. then sang and cheered side-by-side with nic, shawn, anges, shenn, jacky and more.. hahahahas.. lol... went to rinse the body and toked with huiqing for a while...
FOAM PARTY!!! OMG!! was super fun!!! all the danceing, cheering, emoing and singing was did inside there!! hahahahahas.. lol.. mass danced with lots of ppl, played foam with lots of ppl, sang songs side-by-side with the same old peeps, rolled the foam with TRIBE1, and loys more.. had supper, then went to bathe with huiqing.. hahahahahs.. was the first time that we rested so early.. 1130pm!! hahahas.. then luyao, shawn and anna came to pei huiqing and me to sleep. hahahahas.. we instantly slept once we closed our eyes..

SUNDAY (DAY3): hahahahas.. everyone woke up super late.. bout 7am!! nice sleep!! hahahahahs!! went to wash up, then packing.. had breakfast, the area cleaning.. jacky who left the previous nite came back!! hahahahahs!! then i washed toilets!! FIRST TIME!! hahahahs!! washed with jacky.. LOL!! hahahahs!! then went to helped the others, talked with my tribe leader.. then went to the hall for some emo session and talk by mr leow and mr ng.. had a funny e-web which was continued with truth-and-truth.. hahahhas!! then, after all the talks, i decided to join to be OGL again.. hahahahas.. LOL!! then break camp.. went to have lunch with shawn and dabao for mum.. hahahahs.. yupps.. thats all for the fun, tired, happy, enjouable camp.. hope i can live up to the expectation as a leader.. hahahahahs

GIVING ALL MY SPECIAL THANKS TO THOSE WHO ACCOMPANIED ME THROUGHOUT THE CAMP!!!

TRIBE1: felicia(tribe leader), jamie, jacky, jia en, pearlyn, huihui, charlyn, hafiza, yantze, lohyee, kevin, lizhong, kannan, jiantao, wenjun, kimleong, baifeng and those whom i didn mention..

FAVOURITE PEEPS: shawn, nic, shenn, anges, huiqing, christanto, bernie, abigail, hooikim, zhaomian, luyao, (jocelyn and wanzi who smsed me during camp), huiyan, and lots of other people who i loved!!

THANKS TO ALL OF YA FOR MAKING THE CAMP SUCH A MEMORABLE ONE!! LOVE YOU ALL TO THE MAX!!! WITHOUT ANY OF YA, THE CAMP WONT BE A SUCCESS!! HAHAHAHAS!! LOVE YOU ALL LOADS!!! =))

10:48 PM
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Thursday, October 16, 2008

hahahas... i dunno wad to say..

wed: cool day!! came to school juz for the class excursion to the peranakan museum. hahahahs.. lessons over, then sat down with zhaomian they all and eating snacks.. then wanzi saw cockroach which scared everyone away.. HAHHAHAHAHAS!! went to the peranakan museum in a stinky bus.. made us feel like vomiting.. hahahahs.. reached the destination and then went in.. took lots of funny pics using winnie's and bernie's camera.. hahahahhas.. took a very nice class photo too.. this time everyone is in the same attire. hahahaahahahs.. UTTERLY FUN AND COOL!!
went back to school.. ate pizza that laoshi treated.. XIEXIE LAOSHI!! went to marina with shing, winnie, bernie, abigail and elysia.. then we ate lots of food at SEOUL GARDEN!! ste non-stop from 630 to 9plus eh!! MAD!! hahhaahhahahahas.. my skirt almost burst.. hahahahahs!! lol!! went home with winnie, shing and elysia.. reached home at 11pm!! did some pw and fell asleep soon!!

thurs: went to school and mt taoyan on the bus.. didn tok much cos i am tired.. hahahahas.. went to school.. emoed at the first period when laoshi showed all the depressing scores.. emoed when wanzi, shing and winnie didn even give a damn bout me.. they juz didn tok to miie and started their own conversation that i cant even join in.. i feel so outcasted now.. when i ask them to fill me in on wad to tok, they juz, "oh, it's nth la", so i continued to isolate myself, blasted my eardrums with songs and cried my eyes out.. geog was boring.. then civics was ok, watch new movies... the others went for OP, so i slacked at the com lab with the other classmates.. when it was our turn, we went to round up peeps that are supposed to go out, and found out yongqiang was playing basketball alone, half-naked.. HAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!! OP was sucky, cos i didn rlly prepare cos i was tired the day before.. after OP, went to play netball with huimui, candice, jaclyn, yuting, amanda, zhaomian and yongqiang.. shing and winnie juz went off to the science centre without telling me anything.. played until they comeback, then leave school..
reached home, did some chores and then watched some shows.. went to the sports complex cos someone went to buy some stuff with me. thanks for the bottle and shoebag!! hahahahas! then went to the doctor with sis.. hahahs.. now, ranting on my bloggie!! LOL!!

i dunno wad am i but i am utterly dependent on frens and family.. when someone whom i am actually very close with stops toking to me, i will feel very weird, sad and emo.. thats the feeling.. i dunno why, but all of the sudden, wanzi and i suddenly stopped toking.. i am sorry if i did something wrong to ya.. sorry if i frustrate you.. then i stopped toking to lots of peeps.. SORRY IF I MADE YA ALL ANGRY OR IRRITATED YOU ALL OR FRUSTRATE YOU ALL!! SORRY SORRY!! SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY!! I AM AN UTTERLY BAD, USELESS FREN!! hope we can still tok like we were as normal.. hope that i can still be included in the conversations..

great happiness comes with great sorrow..
i had great happiness yesterday and yet i am suffering from great sorrow now.
i wish life would still be the same..

i wished the dreams and lies around me will stay forever..

8:22 PM
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Monday, October 13, 2008

me and taoyan after school.. loitering somewhere near her house..

acting stupid. hahahahahahs..

loved this, cos both of us stuck out tongues.. hahahahahs. =)

had school today.. pc, math when i was fallin asleep, civics, chem.. toked to jocelyn during lessons.. LOL..

went to have lunch with winnie when we toked bout why we emoing.. hahahahahs.. was an enjoyable afternoon that i accompanied winnie home and toked for very long.. hahahahahs.. okies.. we promise not to emo any more.. i mean try ba... hahahahahahs.... went back to school and waited for taoyan.. toked to shenn and learned that she's happie.. as long as my frens are happie, then i am happie too.. hahahahahahas.. GOOD FOR YA SHENN!! =)

went to look at taoyan's pc lesson.. hahahahas.. was cool that she managed to climb over the ropes.. hahahahas.. played swing made from the ropes with taoyan, olivia and adeline.. hahahah.. then went home with taoyan while we toked to each other and met taoyan's fren.. ahahahahahs.. went home tgt.. lol.. toked bout stuff these few days.. hahahahahs... then alighted at taoyan's.. went to taoyan's house and loitered as we toked and introduced her songs.. lol!! hahahahahs.. okies.. toked for bout 1 hour then went to comic shop buy comics and old chang kee..

reached home, bathed, watched hitman reborn, then fell asleep til now.. SORRY PEEPS IF I DIDN REPLY YA ALL ON MSN OR SMSES.. i was deeply asleep due to fever again.. haiz.. i think i am prone to it.. hahahahahahs.. dun feel like going to school tml eh.. =( tired.. especially my eyes are killing me.. dropping off... =( feel like sleeping at every instant..

while toking with winnie and taoyan, i realised something.. ahahahhahahahas..

everthing comes with a price.. is this called equivalent trade or everything comes in cycle.. hahahahas.. is like great power comes with great responsibility.. so, great happiness comes with great sorrow.. thats wad i rlly thought of.. it applies quite true to me though.. hahahahas.. these few months ar, i dun rlly have a sip of happiness of sunkist.. cos, it was all a pretense.. trying to make myself happie.. like wad winnie said, if i dun feel like laughing, i will not laugh.. dun force oneself to do something.. but when i want to cry, i will not force myself to stop crying. hahahahas.. i think i am going berserk.. lol

i am not myself, that's wad i can say..

i am not wanted..

i will try attempt suicide..

i am living cos of my family and friends.. cos i cant stand a second w/o them..

i wished that i could really fall into a deep slumber forever and live in a dream that i desired.

~i could have chosen a different path in life~

11:53 PM
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hahahahas.. first class photo with everyone in it!! =) nice..

hahhahahahas.. another photo.. =)

lol.. like this loads.. one of the nicest that i agree with..

hahahahs, again, i am blogging in the middle of the night... LOL!

hahahhahas, firstly, like to thank everyone for the concern.. hahas, i am ok la.. hehehehehs.. maybe someone can counsel me though.. hahahahhas!

friday was cool!! hahahahhas.. um... except for the lessons.. chinese lesson, then took class photos.... hohohohohs!! supr cool!! first time when everyone is in the picture.. hahahahah!! =) UTTERLY COOL!! after school, went to JP with shing, winnie, bernie and elysia.. hahahahs.. ate yakitori.. SUPER NICE!! then we started taking lots of pics... hahhahahs. BERNIE!! REMEMBER TO SEND MIIE THE PICS!! HAHAHAHHS!! lol.. went to walk about with bern and elysia, then headed home.. was talking to cher on phone cos she sounded upset.. DARLING!! RMB THAT YOU HAVE ME WITH YA K? I AM BY YOUR SIDE!! =) hahahhahahas.. watched hitman reborn for the rest of the nite.. IT WAS SUPER NICE!!! HAHAHHAS! NEH!! NICE RECOMMENDATION!! =)

saturday was a bit bored. hahahahs.. woke up, went to shenn's to collect my chem file.. THANK YOU SHENN!! =) LOVE YA BABE!! =) yupps.. went to ahma's.. then spend my afternoon eating good food and slacking.. hahahahahs.. AH MA'S COOKING IS THE BEST DELICACY ON EARTH!! hahahahahahahahhas.. dad came, went to Bugis and ate pepper lunch, started humming this tune that i like it a lot... maybe i will find someone to help compose it.. =) hahahhas.. on the way home, dad was speeding like crazy while i am karaoke with sis la.. um.. the speed was like 120kmh to 160kmh eh.. hahahahahhas.. funny.. then watched hitman reborn with sis for the rest of the nite..

sunday was slack.. watched tv, hitman.. OMG!! THAT ANIME IS SUPER NICE!! LIKE IT!! hahahahhahas.. yupps.. ate dinner with mum.. sorry that i didn help out.. did chem and revised for a while.. toked to walter bout miie emoing. hahahahs.. thanks!! then talked to zy and reg bout going out.. TOTALLY UTTERLY MISS THE NAINAI GANG! hahahhas.. gonna go out soon as long as OP is over!! MISS YA LOADS!! =) hahahahs..

yupps.. maybe these few days i am feeling better.. but, i miss ya all.. miss toking to ya all and more.. haiz..

i miss all the good times laughing without any worries..
i miss all the good times that we had together playing..
i miss all the good times that we had doing crazy stuff..
i miss all the good times that we had.... no matter what they are..
totally miss all of it..

i rlly wish that i can fall into a deep slumber, living off in the deep dream that i desired, not waking up forever..

maybe i am the unluckiest girl in the world.. everything that i liked are soooo shortlived.. maybe i shall try to change all those...

~ i have fallen , have you?~

1:00 AM
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Thursday, October 9, 2008

~could have been forever, but we have reached the end.~

hahahahahs, wed, um..... i had OP, was ok, then went to firefly to study, alone while the others were still having CCA or playing PSP.. hahahahs, finished chem, geog and chinese. hahahahs, waited for shenn, shawn and nic to end their CCA, so i started emoing. ahahahahahhas.... shenn left when her mum came to fetch her.. left me, nic and shawn. then, went home.. was on the bus stop, emoing... not toking, and shawn threatened to kiss me... haiz..... i dun wanna be kissed by a shorter person except for my family.. hahahahahahahs... yupps... reached home, went to the comic shop, then go buy some stuff to make me happy but failed.. started lying on the bed and cry under the sheets til 10 plus, where i continued to cry to sleep... hahahahahs... no dreams were made..........

today... reached school, wanzi didn come and chinese was emo... then went to geog.. apparently, there isnt any lesson, so the whole class went down to play netball.. IT WAS UTTERLY COOL AND FUN!! hahahas.. then, started to feel a bit better from emoing.. went for civics toking bout positive choice.. was smsing wanzi and cher bout my super emo day.. then, i tried to laugh hard when someone performed the skit on the stage.. was super funny.. hahahahahs.. went for bio, toked to jocelyn who tried to cheer me up.. THANKS, LOVE YA BABE! then bio, gp.. was happy that i passed. yupps.. WINNIE AR!! PASS CAN LE LA!! HAHAHAHAHAS!! STAY HAPPIE!! COS TODAY YOUR BOYFREN ALBUM IS OUT!! hahahahahahas!! after school, had lunch, then played street netball with shing, bernie, abigail, winnie, elysia, huimui, steven, yongqiang, walter and zhepeng.. hahahahhahas.. was fun!! lol.. i start to feel better again.. hahahahs.. went to the H3 chem talk, where i decided that i shll not go and concentrate on my H2. hahahahs.. lol!! went home with zhaomian where we toked loads on studies and future. hahahahahs.. now home, did all the things i want to do and stare space.... hahahahahs...

emoemoemoemoemo.. lol... dunno why i had become like that after promos eh.. i rlly need someone to tok to, where i can lean on to cry as loud as i can.. i miss my laughter.. have i been laughing truthfully?? i rlly dunno.. my mind is in a state of confusion as i lost my footing in the murky waters.. thank you cher and wanzi when i emoed to you all just now.. i am not alone=) sorry nic and shawn if i emoed too much ytd...

how i wish that i can sleep forever in a dream that i always wanted..

5:52 PM
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Tuesday, October 7, 2008

lol.. today ended.. finally.. was super tired.. i was very confused though..

i am fickle, i am stupid and i am useless..
i feel very stupid and useless when i cant help my frens.. I AM UTTERLY SORRY.. =( dunno these few days so emo.. maybe still stressed bout promos.. i dunno wad to say honestly.. this is the first time..

the day was over, bored and i was utterly tired.. dozed off during chem and bio.. haiz.. i rlly dunno wad to do.. not paying attention to lessons and not doing tutorials.. haiz.. i am going berserk.. i am going crazy and all. =( I AM GOING TO BREAK DOWN SOONER OR LATER! can anyone tok me out and rite?? pls help miie?? i cant wait for chinese and pw to be over.. HAIZ!!

sad when i reached home, i cant play maple.. haiz.. cant restart downloading.. @#$%^!!

hey! peeps, when are you free?? i rlly need someone to tok to.. i am going berserk.. everyone is leaving me, abandoned me.. i dunno wad to say.. =(

~fallen angel, deeply into the abyss
you broke the promise and made me realize
it was all just a lie~

9:03 PM
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Monday, October 6, 2008

some geek specs of mine bought in far east.. hahahahas.. shing looked rlly geeky in it!! hahahahs.. utterly suitable for her..

me in the geek spec.. tried to make myself as stupid.. ahahhahahas.. took this while waiting for chem tutorial in science block toilet.. hahahahahs!! =)
miie and shing at zhaomian's after the skit.. hahahahas, she is "Lella" and i am one of her evil stepsister, again in the geeky look.. hahahahahs.. =) LOL!! the skit is super funny.. i think everyone will just go burst laughing watching the skit!! hahahahahahahhahaha!! =)

~i just got this feeling that everyone is leaving me soon~

hahahahahahs. today was a cool day.. hehehehehs...

reached school, saw shawn waiting for shenn and theh shenn reached with a 7 seater.. LOL.. hahahhaas.. then, went to meet nic at the concourse, saw anges and her board.. SUPER COOL!! then boring lessons and all... no pc lessons today.. :P hahahahs.. went for civics which i keep laughing when i dunno why. hahahahahs. LOL!! okies, then went for chem lesson, happy for those who can pass chem.. =) GOOD JOB GUYS!! =) hahahhas..

lesson over, met nic over at lunch.. I AM SUPER PROUD OF YA CHEM PROMOS!! super improvement.. amyways, there will be moderation, so keep all the fingers crossed!! hahahahs!! then pw all the way til 4 plus.. met shing and wanzi to go to zhaomian's to act a "CINDERELLA" skit which ended up very funny.. i acted as the evil step sisters and was SUPER FUNNY TO SEE SHING BEING BULIED!! hahahahahahs!! okies, i am a bit sadistic.. ahhahahahahs.. but it was rlly funny!! i cant wait for the whole video to be up eh!! hahahahs RMB TO SEND MIIE HOR!! hahahahas!!! okies.. THAT'S THE FUNNIEST PART OF THE DAY!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAS!! =)

went home, bathed, started on the speech cards, hahahahhas which i dunno how to do.. and the OGL thingy is driving me totally crazy.. i dun wanna go liek alone eh.. =( wad's a camp without my good frens being facs with miie?? i know this is the wrong attitude, but it is each other's company that i think makes me endure the camps.. hahahahs i am going berserk!! LOL!! for once i am finally tired, maybe used up all my energy laughing at zhaomian's.. hahahahahhas.. OMG!! super funny.. hahahahhas.. yupps.. then toked with nic bout some stuff at nite.. hahahahas. nth biggie.. LOL.. yupps..

i am sorry if i am a utterly bad, uncaring fren.. I AM UTTERLY SORRY!! sorry sorry.. i am rlly hoping and wishing that everyone i know will not retain k!! I AM KEEPING MY FINGERS CROSSED!! i rlly hope that!! i hope all of us will see each other again in J2!! RLLY!! SINCERELY HOPED THAT!!!

~the smile that you torn me apart,
took my heart, deceived me from the start

showed me dreams, i wished they turn into real

broke the promise and made me realize

it was all just a lie

could have been forever but we had reached the end.

my sparkling angel, my saviour,

all but the most beautiful illusion that i ever seen..~

11:59 PM
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Sunday, October 5, 2008

ANGELS
this is the song that i have been listening lately while i was watching the trailers for TWILIGHT which i had been recently going crazy about.

ahahahhaas.. going thru of papers.. this few days i cant slp well.. dunno why.. enjoyed the nite at shenn's with nic, shawn, shenn, jacky and anges. hahahas.. after watching money not enuf, jacky and anges went to slp. i started having fever again, and then went to go makan rotiprata with shenn, nic and shawn at 1AM!! hahahahs.. then went back to watch chibi with shenn cos the 2 guys slept after that.. then slept til 11am..
went to meet cher and qian cos shermin psed last minute.. ahahahahahahhaas.. walked around far east and makaned.. i bought a geeky spec.. hahahhahahahahahas.. went to vivo and cher bought one piece of nice one-piece.. hahahahahs.. yupps.. was starting not feeling well cos my stomach is upsetting and i have no appetite.. went home early.. SORRY CHIOBUS THAT I LEFT EARLY.. WILL GO OUT AGAIN NEXT TIME SOON.. =)

hahahahahs.. woke up, not feeling well the next day.. bathed, cos mum forced miie to go school.. when i wanted to go school, i vomitted.. went back to slp in the end and consulted the doctor.. reading eclipse and breaking dawn... was super not hungry and nauseas.. haiz...

went to school, met taoyan.. went to toilet and came out, saw nic.. ahahahahs, apparently juz finished boy's camp.. hahhahahas.. was not feeling well.. tot that i was pregnant.. lucky i have period.. hahahahahahahahahahahhaahahahahahahas.. the next few days was stupid, did not eat and was feeling super sick..
FINALLY FINISHED BREAKING DAWN!! HAPPY ENDING!! HAPPY EVER AFTER!! hahahahahahahahas.. how i wish i am like Bella too.. hahahhahas.. have my dear Edward and Renesmee beside me.. but shing woke me up to face the reality.. how can there be a perfect guy like Edward to fall in love with a pig like me.. hahahahahhaas.. i must be dreaming too much.. i was totally OBSESSED with this TWILIGHT SAGA!! went to watch the trailer for the upcoming movie.. i think i can watch it countless time eh.. ahahhahahahahahahas.. =) LOL!! hahahahas.. then i came across the song, ANGELS.. the lyrics was super nice and kept listening for countless time...

went to church with my new geeky look.. hahahahas.. was supposed to be a happy thing but kenni made it a bit too serious for miie.. i a bit dun dare to go le la.. despite the frens there.. saw many peeps there.. ahahhahaahahahs.. went for dinner with family, then go shopping lor.. hahahahahs.. went home and finished the comic series that shenn reccommended, THE GENTLEMEN ALLIANCE CROSS.. hahahas, nice ending too.. LOL.. dunno why, sth happened to my laptop.. i went utterly crazy.. lucky sis was here and solved the problem.. ahahhahas..

woke up, eat lunch with better appetite, did some OP ppt slides.. then went to return the rented comics.. rented another series.. hahahahahs.. watched The Island from channel 5. hahahahahs.. was nice though.. went to pack the room and finished chem promo paper.. ahhahahas.. then this is wad i am doing currently...

shawn called miie and toked to miie bout some stuff.. i dunno why will it be like this, but peeps, always look on the bright side k?? i will pay for the miracle to happen to you.. i dun wish t brood over promos cos it has been finalised and i cant really do about it.. all i wish is that everybody around miie will be happie... i dun wish my frens to be miserable.. NO ONE WILL RETAIN!!! =)

i have been crying so i can sleep.. i wish that i can sleep easier too.. i cant dream of anythin, as if my mind is clouded.. i didn have a single dream ever since before sept hols.. i dunno wad happen to miie.. but there is a way, to cry to slp.. CRY TO SLEEP SO THAT YOU CAN SLEEP. i think i am absurd. but this is the best way now... this song has been in my mind.. it made me cried to sleep and wake up with red swollen eyes.. hahahahahas, i think i am an utter idiot..

Angels by Within Temptation.... this is part that i cried..

~the smile when you tore me apart
you took my heart, deceived me right from the start
you showed me dreams, i wished they'd turn into real
you broke the promise and made me realise
it was all just a lie
could have been forever but we have reached the end.~

11:48 PM
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